I went to the meeting. I didnt have a good experience. it was three people there. I stood outside the door for about 10 minutes. I just smoked a cigarette and listened to the two people there talk. When the door opened we all went in and sat around this little table. the guy that was in charge of the meeting introduced himself and the two other people and me. then the guy in charge gave us each a paper with these steps on them. We all read some. Then they just started talking to each other. None of them even looked at me. And there was alot of god talk. In those steps and what they were talking about. Since a traumatic experience i've lost my faith and don't believe anymore. So it made me very uncomfortable. I wanted to get up and walk out. But i stayed. At the end of the meeting they recited something together. And the meeting was over. they stood around talking. And i just left.

I felt like i wasnt even welcome there. I wasn't as scared as i thought i would be. So i would have responded. I'm not going back there on wednesday. I might try another day. Maybe it will be different. this meeting has me all depressed now and i want a drink.

But for sure i'm going to try the aa online meetings like missbelle talked about.

Thank ya'll
chalmette