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The appointment was yesterday.. It wasintersting to say the least....... He gave me a completely new look on things. I was diagnosed with DID, bipolar, schizo, anxiety disorder manic depression and ptsd. I don't know which is real or not. But basically my life is like a bad trip that never ended. Perhaps my mom took some LSD while she was pregnant with me, I wouldn't be surprised. But anyways, I get visuals, I am in deep thought non stop, I hear things, I have dillusional thoughts, I have bouts of mania, I have blackouts, I feel things that are not real. I hear voices inside my head and outside my head. I didn't tell the doc about the voices or hallucinations...He's not a t or my pdoc and it was my first appointment. What I did tell him was enough for a new patient. I told him about the blackouts, about the fainting and seizure and how they resemble blackouts. I told him about other blackouts in my past. He than asked if I got migraines from these blackouts. I told him yes and explained them to him. He then went on to tell me that I was not bipolar and I was not DID. 30 minutes in the room with him and he dismissed those two main dx's I've had for the last 10 years. But he gave me a new idea to consider. He says he believes I have "anxiety personality disorder" and that these blackouts and such are a reaction to the migraines that I get after the blackouts?! One doctor when I was 14 said that my depersonalization was caused by a "warning" sign that I was about to have a mazzive headache. And boy did I have headaches after those but how can you not when you have an "out of body experience"? So I think I'm gonna post yet again and see if someone knows anything about this "anxiety personality disorder" or if someone is like me basically with all these symptoms no doctors can figure out... Thanks so much for your replies!!!
Oh and he gave me two meds he said were for anxiety. One of them is being mailed to me and the other I will be picking up after work today. I don't remember the names for them. He gave me refills for 12 months and made another appointment for January 25th. He only works in the office one day a week so he doesn't have many oppenings. It's a office for retired doctors that volunteer. I think I'm going to go to the clinic and try to get referred to a t or pdoc to help a little more. You can't undiagnose someone and rediagnose them that quickly from such a short appointment can you? I mean if I don't have them than I don't have them I'm OK with that, but don't tell me I don't have them unless you know for certain and you know the history right? It took my t a year to come up with the DX of DID and this doc took 30 minutes to day no and give me a new name... I'm so much more confused. But he said he didn't think I would have another seizure any time soon at the least but couldn't tell me I wouldn't have one again of course and said that I would have to deal with this anxiety issue with blackouts for the rest of my life and basically wont get my license back while I'm dealing with this issue... I'm so confused... But what a relief to get some anxeity meds... Well one is a "beta blocker" whatever that is... He says it will block the migraines and in turn cause the blackouts to stop??? Then he gave me one that he said was originally used to lower blood pressure but is now used for anxiety. I'm alright with that one but I don't know if he knows that I already have low blood pressure normally. If it's 117/95 it's kinda high for me. Typically it's a lot lower... Hope that doesn't matter I don't see him again for 3 months... Hope it works though...
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