Saw my T yesterday. He really, really wants me in the hospital. I don't disagree with him, but my job isn't allowing that kind of time away from the classroom right now. If only it were a few weeks down the road . . . . That isn't helping my feeling of being trapped. This really sucks.

So we spent our time coming up with plans on how to handle things if they do get to be more than I can take. He wanted me to come in again tomorrow (Friday), but (a) he didn't have an opening that would work for me, and (b) Friday we plan on leaving pretty immediately for the big rivalry football game, so I'm booked up myself so to speak.

I'm exhausted. T said that is one of his concerns about me right now is that my level of fatigue both physically and mentally is very high. It just is what it is.