I do understand that feeling. It's a crappy place to be but I know for me, it's familiar. It's so much easier to berate myself than it is to find an ounce of compassion. I am trying to figure out why that is such an automatic reaction for me. I suppose it comes from being treated that way...like I must've been bad for people to treat me that way so I'll prove it.

I dunno. I do understand where you are...