I just came back from my session with T, and that is the very thing we talked about!
Yes, I admit, I would like to be my T's favorite. I want her to love me, I want her to look forward to seeing me, I want some symmetry in our relationship.
I don't know if i am her favorite, I doubt that, because I have only seen her for less than a year, and she probably has clients she has seen for years. But then again, I see her numerous times a week, and I am very open and honest with her, I am a risk taker, I know she does love me ... So maybe... I can't even explain why it is important. I guess it's more important to know that I am loved than to know that I am the most loved.

Ugh. Love hurts. I wanted so much to hug her at the end of the session (like I always want to), but I can't because that's our boundary. So we only hold hands and squeeze them and I know she loves me too, but it's so freaking hard to separate.

Oh, and the blog: I didn't like that. I am glad that is not my T that wrote that. She never would have said anything like that.