I've been working out and trying to eat healthy, but I'm having problems bingeing and purging again. I had a bit of a scare when I purged recently, and told myself I'd never do it again, and have been trying to control my food intake - but then tonight I opened a packet of biscuits, just to have one. One became two became three became most of the packet, and then I became aware of what was happening. I couldn't stop myself. I finished the whole packet (shortbread) and then went and threw it all up. It was awful. This might be TMI but the nature of the biscuits is very stodgy, and I felt like I was going to choke.
I feel kind of shaken, because I felt so out of control tonight. The rate at which I've been purging has increased lately, and I'm scared that I won't be able to stop doing this to myself. Food has always been my comfort, but I'm very concerned about being overweight, and so I have this conflict...
Not sure what to do.
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