I have somehow believed all my life that several years of abuse have done (almost) nothing to me. Every now and then some problems popped up and somehow most of the relationships I ended up in were not good for me to put it in nice words. Sometimes I would think that this might have to do with what happened in my childhood. But then my dad would tell me to "finally get over it" and that "this is so long ago and I should stop blaming my past for the problems I have". And I believed this... for so long.

Until so many things came down on me and I struggled and tried to be strong... so hard. That was when I was diagnosed with complex PTSD... about 1 year ago now...

And in this year I finally realized why my dad wanted me to believe that my past has nothing to do with my current live... and why I myself wanted to believe it so desperately, too.
See, my parents looked away when all those things where happening to me. So if my past is influencing my life it means it is their fault because they did not protect me as they should have. And they can't live with that as much as I did not want to see my parents part in this because I love them so much. But trying to act as if nothing had happened was not really helpful...

I have learned a lot in the past year because we have a great health system here which provided me with groups as well as individual therapy.
One thing I learned is to be gentle with myself. Just like you I hated feeling confused. I hated feeling ashamed when I ended up standing with my cup in the bathroom instead in front of the dishwasher once more at work and people look funny at me. Or when I forget things, even if they just happened a minute ago.
I used to beat myself up over all those things. But this never helps. It just made me feel worse. Instead of feeling frustrated with myself I try to be compassionate. I realized that things progress slowly. That sometimes it just takes longer for me to figure things out and that sometimes I am not able to do the things I would like or should do.
I started being more open to what is going with me to the closest people around me (friends and co-workers) and it has helped me not only accepting things better for myself but also feeling more accepted and understood by others.
And I allow myself all the time it needs to heal... even if I wish I could heal in an instant

I am sure your T can help you find solutions for some of the problems that are troubling you the most right now. For the rest... just trust that it will get better with time... that it is normal to feel all scared and irritated with all these strange things happening to you.
And don't forget to get support and reassurance whenever you need to