No. Now my post is scary!

I actually called T and asked him to leave me a message today about all of my anxiety around this. And then I realized that what I wanted was for him to magically take away my anxiety so I called him back and told him that, and said not to worry about the message. Because there was no way for him to give me what I needed. I just need to find a way to work through it.

I decided to take it a second at a time. Or a breath at a time. I can let myself be good enough for one breath. Sometimes.

Blah!