(((BNLsMOM))) You are so strong for taking care of your kids (sometimes at the expense of getting yourself desperately needed help) when you are so ill. What you've proven this week is that there is something stronger than depression driving your life (your love for your kids). Hold on to it, and remember that the darkness will pass, but that lamp will burn forever.

As for hiding how you truly are feeling from loved ones, I do that all the time. I don't want to worry them. I don't want them obsessing over me, I don't want them to force me to talk about it when I don't feel comfortable having those conversations with them...

Your husband trying to tell you that "you are fine" really annoys me. I hate having my feelings invalidated. Really, who could possibly know more about how you are feeling than you?! If you have the energy, I'd take him aside and discuss this. It really is a major issue; if someone chronically invalidates another persons feelings, it actually is considered emotional abuse. So, you want to gain control over this before it comes to that.

I hope you feel better soon.