Before hand I was with my nurse and I was scared and so upset I said something like "I'm scared, I don't want to go, I don't want a new therapist". I wanted her to say something like "It's okay, it will be fine. You'll do fine". But instead she told me how my previous therapist would never do therapy with me again and I should just deal with it.

???? I know I suck at communicating but can they at least try to work with me?? My psychiatrist is the only one who doesn't misunderstand everything that I say. She took me saying "I don't want a new therapist" as "I miss blankblank and I don't want someone to replace him". I don't understand how she gets that from that? But maybe I don't communicate like everyone else. Apparently. Because things like this happen to me all the time. I just wanted reassurance. They keep saying how they want me to communicate my feelings to them, but every time I do something like this happens. How am I supposed to keep making myself vulnerable like that?