Hey all,

This might sound a little strange but I needto say it. This year I suffered from 2 really severe depressive episodes both of which landed me in the hospital. The second hospitalization was at the July 13-Aug 5...9 days in-patient and the rest was partial hospitalization. After partial was done on Aug 4 I saw Pdoc 3 time in like 4 weeks then once a month for Sept and Oct. I just saw my Pdoc for October and he was comfortable with my waiting to see him again till December...i think it actually is 7 weeks. He suggested it. I thought I was but this year has been so extremely rough I do NOT trust that I am really better or getting bettet but better enough to wait that long. Part of me wants to call and see if we can do 4 weeks instead...but I know thats crazy and that I should trust him. I dont know what to do..my nerves are shot just thinking about waiting that long.

I know I see my T in between but Im still really nervous about that much time between seeing Pdoc. I have anxiety med but I try not to take them. I dont know what to do????????? Ehhh...maybe I will talk to T about it wednesday when I see her.