So after 2 yrs with my pdoc, the cracks in my walls are beginning to show.

I had a session earlier this week which opened the flood gates so I emailed tdoc an epic account of how life is for me right now.

My next session is in 4 days and I.really.do.want.go and I know this is because of the email and how candid I was in it

Every bloody week is the same at this time. I start to get scared about going and have her stare at me until I say something - which can be half the session :roll eyes:

So now - as the same as every other week - I'm thinking of reasons/excuses for not going.

I'm so scared of myself.