This is why I am here too. I feel like I am being unfair to my family. I think we need to let it out here. It seems so far to be a great place just to let out feelings out. I want to talk to my husband but I don't even know what to say at the moment as I am not sure what I am feeling. I am so scared I am going to hurt them but being distant and not engaging. Advice - don't shut him out and keep talking here and to him. Our lovers do want to help us.