I keep feeling jealous because other people have jobs. I am trying my best to get experience. I have applied to varies jobs. A letter was sent to me and I was rejected. They said I had excellent working skills but the other people were much better than me. I think to myself suicide is my plan B if I don't get one. Yes, it's stupid. I'm only 18 so I shouldn't be so hard on myself. Well done to you lot who have jobs! You deserve it! I don't. I understand the economy is bad but they are still employing people. I want to earn money and then fly to where my boyfriend lives and live with him. I feel a little teary as I type this thread out. I have tried to apply but still I shouldn't bother. No one should bother me. If I died, not much people would care. I don't deserve to live this life. If this volunteer thing doesn't get me anyway, I won't bother! I might as well kill myself. Life isn't for me.  Should I be a prostitute and get money for sex? That would be a great idea! Ha!
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