I wanna run away... Can't take it anymore. I'm down, way down and yet I have to hear the horrible words, the screaming....
I feel like a terrible mother!!!
I just wanna cry, cry, cry...
My ears in torment!
Brain is spinning around in my head.

I love my son! But it's way to much now with his Asperger... His sister is screaming- a sound going through bone and marrow.

I'm such a loser! Can't even take care of my own kids anymore. I've had it! I just want SILENCE!

"I want to take you to a country in war- so that you were to be killed." My son's words a little while ago.