Oh Nina - I am so sorry you are going through this. I have no experience with Aspergers. Please know that you are doing the very best that you can. That you are exhausted and weary but that you love your children beyond all else and that you will never harm them. You are not a loser hun.

Is it possible your husband (if he is home) can take the kids for a bit? Is there anyone else that could take them for a bit? Just so that you could get a bit of the quiet you so need right now.

Please try and stay calm - don't acknowledge the things your dear son is saying. Breath my friend.