nina.....you are a good mother and you will get through this..when things get out of control....try to take a few minutes alone and regroup......i remember times when my son was young...the one with tourette's....and i thought i could not go on another day....what i had to do was think of wht HE was going through and it was always worse for him than me.....take care sweetie and keep venting here.it will help