oh, I fully intend on asking her what she means. It's just that right now, for whatever reason, I'm a little fixated on that phrase and what it might mean, and I'm trying really hard to avoid texting her to ask because really I don't need to know right now.

I'm trying to give T more space, because I'm pretty sure she needs and wants that. I've already texted her a couple times today, and I think that if I did so again she would probably answer, but I'm sort of paranoid about the fact that she is sick of me, sick of dealing with me, and so I picture her groaning when she sees another text from me. Groaning, and then reading and answering it because she knows I'm in pain and she does care about me and she doesn't want to leave me hanging.

Basically, I just want to explore this idea with people other than T in the hopes that it will lower my urge to explore it with her right this minute.