you guys have done so much to help me feel better about my list of needs. Thank you so much.

rainbow_rose, I also hope my T responds positively to it, and when I read your post I realized that whether she does or not is on her. Her response is about her, it's not about me. And if she responds negatively, as much as that would hurt and upset me, now I have this list and you can bet that I will be showing it to any potential new Ts.

I learned something about myself by writing that list, and that lesson is mine regardless of what happens next.

I have another email that I've been drafting to T, and I'm going to share it here before I send it because it's much more raw and I think it may be somewhat passive aggressive. I'm not quite ready to share it yet, but I appreciate you all helping me sort this stuff out.