Flooded I know you see this as a pattern, because you've said that when you post about these times. Can you, for now, accept that this is your pattern right now and that you don't have to act on your feelings? When this happens could you say "Oh yeah, this is what happens with me." and not let it interfere with your being able to go to your appointments? Sometimes I go "in protest" and the first thing I say is, "I didn't want to come today." It's an honest and good place to begin.