(((((SoFragile)))))

Since you don't have insurance or anything do you have some good numbers to call incase you are struggling again? Giving in can feel so good but even better is getting past these negative coping skills in favor of better ones.

I don't know very many myself but here's a list of free resources:
http://psychcentral.com/helpme.htm, I don't think it's just for suicidal people - and I'm sure there are other hotlines to call too
also check the sticky at the top of the forum for numbers specific to si