There is something that I realized about myself:
I've never been able to feel comfortable being on my own and in between my long term serious relationships I find myself causally dating men that really didn't mean much to me.

I'm learning and recognizing these relationship patterns and it's hard and sometimes I find myself feeling bad about myself.

I enjoyed having that other company by my side, waking up getting the good morning text, buying that new outfit to get ready to meet a guy for dinner, and just knowing I have someone there makes me feel good. This pattern has caused alot of stress bc I then mistaken the attention I'm getting from men and ending up being with men who are horribly wrong for me. I don't feel lonely but I just enjoy having the feeling of being in a relationship.

Thats a pattern that I need to break and change. I want to learn how to enjoy my own company and not be in a relationship.

Please give me insights on how to more forward from here.