Googley: Thank you. Geez, I'm getting inspired by you guys. Boy, I wish I had the receptionists from your hospital at this clinic I go to. It never ocurred to me that T may want to know it's affecting my ability to work with her until you said it. I wonder if this has something to do with why it just doesn't ever feel right to tell T that I'm attached to her. It just doesn't feel safe there knowing that I have to deal with icky people before and after seeing T. I wish I didn't have these attachment feelings for T. It would of made it so much easier for me to run away and look for a different T but I really like my T and it has so been worth it - going through all the crap and mistreatment from T's rep just to get to see her.

Yes indeed I have a hard time speaking up for myself. I usually just let the other party have it their way. I know this is not a good thing because people have so taken advantage of me. I'll have to do lots of practicing then. Practice makes perfect huh? I hate the word "perfect."

I do hope T will not get mad at me and that she sets the reps there straight for the sake of all the clients who go there.
You're so kind for saying I deserve to be respected. It would be nice if they respected me because I can't think of anything I've done to offend them.

I've overlooked many annoying/rude things T's reps have done to me. I'll list a few for you guys:

1) When calling to remind me of my appointments, they keep asking for Mr. Yang when I told them several times I'm a girl. I've been going there once a week since December. It makes me think "Do I look and sound like a man or something?"

2) 9 out of 10 times I'll be given the rant on the 3 appointments rule only speech from the same people over and over. It makes me think "Do you not remember telling me this a week ago and the week before that?" Do you not remember what I said my T said?" It gets old fast.

3) One time one of the reps said "You have too many appointments scheduled already. You aren't allowed to schedule anymore." Then she went into the lecture on why they only really schedule three weeks out. The way she said it was harsh. Then I said "Nevermind." As I started to walk away she says "Wait, you can schedule one." I was like "WTF?????" in my head. Why did she give me all that grief and then when I walk away, she'd do what I needed -a DAMN appointment. That one really felt like a fight for an appointment.

4) Everytime I go, they always ask me for a copay. I know they are just doing their job but I've told them several times that I don't have copays - just a really high deductible. I feel like they have memory issues.

5)This one still bothers me. I showed up a hour early for my appointment once because I had my blood drawn. I didn't have somwhere else to be so I decided to go early. The rep gave me a questionaire to fill out and said "You have plenty of time to do this because you're not going to be seen early. Just so that you know." MAN!!! Did she assume that I assumed that I should be seeing early because I showed up a hour early for my appointment? She was way off. That was so unexpected. What the hell did she mean by that? I already knew I wasn't going to be seen early. She didn't need to say that.

6) This one just pisses me off. I showed up for an appointment and the rep says "I don't see you on the schedule." I told her that I do have an appointment because it was on my calendar and the appointment list they provided me with from the clinic. She didn't believe me and said "Sorry. You're not on here." I said "I do have one can you double check please?" Of course she didn't and wouldn't. I wanted to talk to T but I was too upset and I just walked away. At the next session with T I apologized for not being at session and told her she can just charge me for the missed session if I really did have a session. T said she wouldn't allow that to happen. T is so awesome.

Geez....all this crap I have to go through. Sorry, I just needed to vent. I've been keeping all this bottled inside.

Thanks again everyone for rooting me on.