I wrote back to her and said: it would be so much easier if you would. But thank you for not just saying ok. It feels a little bit like you're still on my side and that feels a little bit good.

and now I really, really need to stop texting her. I'm going to try to not have any contact with her tomorrow. I have to learn how to do that, even when I'm upset and falling apart, because I have to figure out how to be upset and falling apart on my own.