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Old Oct 30, 2011, 02:17 AM
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I can be okay for a while, but then the emotions come surging back and I'm doing impulsive things. Granted, they are not the impulsive things I used to do, like SI and OD, but still. Impulsive.

And after a while, when I feel so worn down from crying and so worthless and stinging from real or imagined rejection and abandonment, I start lashing out.
You seem to have a good awareness of your feelings and you admit that some of the rejection is imagined. These are hopeful signs!

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I just wish I could erase her from my life and my head and most of all my heart. It would be so much easier if I could just forget her.
You have strong feelings about your T, and that's a hopeful sign too.