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Hi toesquasher.. Sorry to hear of your troubles, that sounds terrible. I do hate my "tummy" too but I hate "belly" "stomache" and all of those. And I hate those because of some abuse from years ago. But it's not uncommon to hate one word for something like this. It's not uncommon to get those urges as well. My guess (although I am not a therapist pdoc or anything of that sort yet) would be that at some point in your past the word "tummy" was used in an abusive or unpleasant way and it has caused tummy to be a trigger of yours. I have words like those as well. Most of us here on PC have trigger words. Like... If someone says anything in relation to smoke I don't mind at all. They can say "it's smoky in here" or "there's so much smoke" or anything like that but when someone says the phrase "I smell smoke" it triggers me and I will have flashbacks sometimes. There are many other triggers that I an a lot of other people have, most of the time they have a connection to a past traumatic event.
Learn your trigger words and try to remember when you hear them that you are just being triggered. That it's feelings from the past are being brought back up and pouring out again. Remind yourself that you are no longer in that place. Remind yourself that you no longer have to go to that place again etc. Grounding skills also work if you have PTSD or DID or any number of things when it comes to triggers. They help me when I have panic attacks all kinds of things.
You're not alone in this, unfortunately many of us here know how hard it is to hear one simple word that others use in their daily life, but we go bonkers if we hear it. But you can overcome it. If you don't have a t, it would be a good idea to look into one especially if you are SI
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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