Perna: I'm not sure if it is different than when I quit before. I'm just hoping it will be. I do look forward to doing things as a family finally. I wish I didn't let this go how it has. I feel tremendous guilt that I've secluded myself like this.

There's a lot wrong with how our marriage is right now. I don't think we'd be together if it weren't for the girls. But that's a whole other topic!