I'm at home in bed... I broke up with my 'bf' a few weeks ago, coz after 2 yrs of 'dating' and 12 yrs of friendship, he had nothing concrete to offer. Then yesterday he shows up at my door, takes me to dinner and doesn't mention my 'ultimatum' at all... I txt him to ask 'what was lastnight about' no answer (we didnt get intimate btw, just hung out and fell asleep in eachothers arms) i don't know what he wants from me,my head and heart hurt from guessing. That's why the need to escape. And i'm sure i w0n't die. Pills have never done anything worse than knock me out,even after taking 100. It's a curse.