A few months ago I saw a somatic T while I was also seeing my own T. I told her about it. I think at first she thought I was doing it because I was dissatisfied with her. She didn't say it outright but there was a comment. I told her I just needed some extra practice with body awareness in regards to emotions. And I only planned on seeing somatic T for a short time and we met only 3x.

This week I told my T that I had been toying with the idea of finding another T to talk about something very sensitive. She asked why. I said, "I want to talk to someone who doesn't know me and if they're disgusted with me it won't be so hurtful. But if i bring up this terrible thing, I can't bear to know that you're disgusted with me."

She was great with my confession of wanting to talk to a different T. As it turned out, I shared with her my disgusting story and she wasn't appalled at all.

So, I get the desire to see more than one T but I would never want to keep it a secret. My wish is that I am able to be completely honest with my T and not need to have secrets or hold back in any way.

Seeing another T in secret would be so dishonest and secretive. Of course, anyone has the right to do that. But, how can there be a good therapeutic relationship with secrets and how can healing take place with secrets?