So.. I've been feeling depressed for a long time and I always think I'm gonna do something about it someday but I just know I won't. And I don't wanna end up worse than I'm now. But it's all getting worse. I lived with my dad when my mom and my dad divorced, but I couldn't anymore cuz he's an alcoholic and he slapped me and said bad things to me when he was drunk. And now that I'm living with my mom, she has no job, she just cries and says "i'll kill myself" and "i wanna die". This really isn't easy when mom's like this every single day. I got no friends anymore, haven't had for a long time since we moved from the place I used to live.. I'm always here, "home". I had friends at school but one of them became jealous of one little thing so I decided not to be with them anymore. And now one of them is saying bad things to me and about me all the time.. So I guess I'm now school teased. My self esteem is also really low.. Then, I left my boyfriend like 8 months ago. I felt like he couldn't understand. Or I guess I thought he would reject me so I thought it's better if I leave him first so I won't get hurt. Well it still hurt and it hurts. He contacted me a couple of days ago and said he misses me. I made up excuses. I lied to him and acted really mean. I don't know whether he was serious or not but I miss him and I love him. But I don't want people around me to hurt me anymore. I'm hurt enough already. I regret everything about my life so much and my life feels like it's in pieces. EVERYTHING is just totally wrong. Nothing's right in my life. I just wanna runaway.. If I had money, I already would have. I think I will after saving money.. I'm soon 16. I hate this place, I wanna get out of here. I can't be here anymore.. What am I supposed to do?