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Dear abuser;
You frighten me beyond belief. You hate me, you can never find one thing positive about me without forcing it. You have done so many things that have caused my life to be so hectic. You have done everything in your power to bring me down. You will not let me live happily or peacefully, you can never forget or let me live down the terrible things I have lived through. You nag at me day and night the things that I do so terribly, the things that I need to be better at, and you tear down the good person I have created for myself.
I have spent years in therapy trying to undo all of the pain but in just a few moments you can come and take it all away. You have hated me for no just reason and you have longed to see me fail from the beginning. I was just a child, but that thought is not understood by you. You hate me for it, but it wasn't me. I was a child. I didn't know. I didn't want to, I didn't like it. I was just a child...
I am my own worst enemy, I am my worst abuser. Now I see why others chose to abuse me, they saw me abuse myself and knew I would be an easy target... And there I go again mentally abusing myself putting the blame on me... I hate me, I love me... Does it ever end? Err...
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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