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Blue Casper... I am a female. I can't tell you exactly what I have... I can tell you exactly what the t's tell me I have but that's a matter of opinion in my belief. I am in a pretty strong and loving relationship right now and it has had its really trying times. We have broken up a couple of times but it only lasting a few minutes. These all brought on by me and the "Well if you don't want to do it this way than you really don't want to be with me because it's hurting me so maybe you should just leave" but after the situation calms, I realize things were not the way they seemed. And my boyfriend forgives me and likewise.
He's got ADHD. I'm sorry but I laugh at him all the time. He laughs at my OCD tendencies and I laugh at his ADHD. Like when I'm in the middle of a sentence telling him something important about my day or something and he will cut me off mid sentance and say "You hear the drums? I wanna learn those!" even if I was saying "Hey I have lung cancer" (let me knock on wood *knock knock*). But I laugh at this because I know it's the ADHD. I know that he doesn't do it to hurt me, he only does it because he's got that short or narrow of an attention span. He says the same about me, he insists all the time that I am ADD but I tell him no I just have a mental tunnel vision. And if it's not in my tunnel I wont get it.
We use laughter a lot to keep our relationship going and it really helps. He's bipolar and ADHD, I've been labeled schizo, DID, manic depressive, bipolar 1, PTSD, OCD and I'm sure I'm missing one or two more. Not to mention the new doc just gave me the personality field to explore thinking it's actually an anxiety personality disorder. But none the less, despite whichever issue there is, we seem to work because we always remind eachother that we really love eachother and it's not that we don't care or want to hurt the other, it's just that we view and perceive the world somewhat differently, which actually in turn gives us something in common.
I'm sure there are plenty of women that are out there that would enjoy being with a man who is "clingy" it's much better than someone who is too distant. It's just a matter of finding the person whose mental process works with yours. Don't look at these as diseases as much as they are the way your mind thinks and works and finding someone who can relate to your thought process and such gets much easier. I did also tell my bf the night we met about the things I was supposedly dx'd with and gave him all fair warning. I like being honest about myself as well. I have this strange feeling that my face tells a lie all day every day. I have the face of someone who had a fair, happy life... A face of an untroubled energetic lively young woman, but it's not who I really am, so I come clean with those I hope to let close enough to me, so that they will understand where the off the wall behavior comes from.
Just my thoughts, the best of luck to you. I know how hard it can be to be diagnosed with so much... Not easy at all. Remembering the names took forever, not to mention the time it took just to come to terms with those names and descriptions. Again the best of luck to you, I hope things work out for you soon! You sound no worse than myself, and I know although I feel like a bad person, that I am anything but a bad person. It's just the way our minds think
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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