I'm madi and i am 15 years old. I know I am young but i just want all this stress and pressure to go away and I just want to end everything now. this all started when my dad, or who i thought was my dad started to verbally abuse my mother in the 6th grade. Most of the time he was drunk and that is when his rage truly came out. They soon got a divorce because my mom thought he was dangerous. Soon after we left he sent me a text saying he wanted nothing to do with me because i was not his biological daughter. My mom admitted she has been lying to me and my real dad left me when I was 2. I dont know anything about him because my mom does not want me to. The divorce was ugly and my mom had to get 2 jobs and I never saw here, so I had to grow up fast. While my mom was at work I did the household work made dinner, the laundry, put myself to bed, and everything. On top of that I had to handle my school work and sports which was my life. i only got to see my mom an hour a week which was terrible because she was my best friend. one year later in the 8th grade my mom met a man who changed our lives. He was like a second father to me. because of him we got a better house and my mom got to quit one of her jobs. It started off so good but then he tried to act like my dad and my mom always took his side, so now me and my mom are pretty much enemies. I know I sound like that dramatic teenager but I sometimes just want to scream on the top of my lungs and tell her what is actually going through my mind. She always tells me I am doing this all for you which is a bowl of ****. She does it all for herself. I have fallin into a deep depression this past year. I have been starting to get bullied, losing friends, wondering who my dad is, thinking about death, attempting to cut, and attempting just to end my life. I have also been suffering major mood swings. They are not just mood swings from my period, I am seriously worried. i feel I am Bi polar but I do not know how to tell my mom with out her yelling at me saying im being over dramatic. I am scared and I feel so lonely. I have been doing a lot of thinking the last month about everything, and how i am just letting everyone down and how everyone thinks i am just one big screw up. I just want to end everything and go to a better place where i know god will watch over me and take good care of me. If you have any advice please help.....I just need someone to talk to...please.