I wasn't sure where to put this as I suppose it covers so many of issues.

I feel utterly crap at everything, I even feel paranoid tonight like I don't belong here, I am useless I can't even respond to posts properly.

I have tried to make friends but even that I fail, My other friend who I had known for 3 years is right I am poison, I don't deserve friends, Maybe I should just curl up somewhere and leave everyone alone.

I feel so sad and lonely in this world.