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Originally Posted by rainbow8
I apologize for sneaking this thread in, asking a general question when I really wanted to discuss my situation again. I am sorry for being that needy right now. 
ECHOES: I emailed my T last night that I couldn't stand it if she made mistakes with me. If it was wrong for her to give me what she did. I want it to be MY failure, not hers. I don't want her to have been wrong! This therapy was going to be great, was going to do what the others didn't do for me. I was going to end my pattern and not obsess about a T anymore. I was going to get better. I messed up. |
rainbow, you didn't mess up. You went into this therapy with the pattern that you knew about and you were honest with your T about it. You did just what you were supposed to do, to 'start where you are'. You and T tried one way, and now you and T, together, are going to try another way. I'll bet you do that in other areas of your life, saying "Well this isn't working like I thought, I'm going to try this other way.". You and T both want the same thing, for you to feel better. You are still on the same journey. You are changing routes because there is more than one path to get there. Your T is committed to your feeling better. Who knows that it won't still be great, just in a way you can't right now imagine. Allow that possibility. Be open to it.
