I have posted before that I had a dysphoric manic episode In Sept. (had 2-3 med changes during this time), then I dipped to low so meds were changed again. However, it's been weeks now that I have been the most normal/sane/balanced I've been in probably 4-6 months. I feel even MORE normal then before that to tell you the truth. "Life" does not bother me as much as it did prior, I'm back to work and I'm able to cope with what comes in the moment. Part of my healing has been taking meds as ordered, seeing Tdoc and on my own have been reading as much as I can about living and being "in the moment". Not worrying so much about past and future, but living for now. It helps tremendously. Of course, I'm not perfect and have my slip ups, but I talk about it as soon as possible to try to make sense out of "what the hell happened"? and have been able to get back up, dust myself off and move forward....

How does it feel... It feels good (not hypomanic good). I trust in what I say and do now, my thoughts are slower and I can be patient with people. I can more easily "see" the dysfunction in others now that I'm well. My moods are generally stable- they go up/down but not drastically and not dysfunctionally. They are appropriate to the situation at hand.