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Old Oct 31, 2011, 12:35 AM
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Hey everyone ...
As many of you probably know Seroquel causes most everyone to gain weight .. well I have gained 30 lbs in say 3-4 months ! My T told me last wednesday he will contact my Pdoc ( they are in the same office ) and see if there is any other options for me .. I have had issues with anorexia for years so the weight gain has me flipping out seriously . prior to Seroquel I was around 120 lbs and im 5'6 everyone told me i was wayyyy to skinny and of course i still looked in the mirror and saw triple that amount .... I finally agreed that i needed to gain about 10 lbs ..well the first 10 lbs i was ok with... the addl 20 ... NO WAY ..

The Seroquel for me causes me to constantly think about food.. somedays i swear all i do is fight the urge to eat and fail which makes the self loathing and hatred for myself to rear its ugly head and i use to cut ALOT and it would stop my constant eating but my husband cant stand the cutting he said it makes him physically sick and I promised him I would try my best to not cut .... I also have Severe Fibromyalgia so i cant just "go work out and battle the weight ..

Because of my finacial situation where i go for Pdoc and T has been able to keep me in samples of seroquel which has been a blessing and a curse .. Im losing my health insurance at the end of the year ,, my T said he will see me for free ... which i am so grateful for but of course i have never been given things for free so Yes i have issues with his seeing me pro bono ..

I know most bipolar people at some point get tired/ mad/pissed off/ or cant afford there meds.. the other nite after a day of eventually eating too much and the constant cravings for carbs and sugar I decided screw it I wont take the seroquel that nite ... well I didnt sleep as well as i usally do taking the seroquel BUT yesterday i wasnt in a rage about food all day ,,i was able to eat smaller amounts and it felt WONDERFUL . so i sit here tonight and have decided im not taking it again ... I KNOW im playing with fire and all that mess but ( I see my T on wednesday) ... its so hard for me to take a medication that causes me to eat and eat and eat ..and if im not eating im thinking about eating ,, Hell its worse than the issues i deal with when my anorexia gets out of hand ,,, but thats easier to deal with than the damn side effects of Seroquel .

Has anyone else had this much weight gain and or trouble on Seroquel and did you find another option ?

Just looking for some info and Yes some support in dealing with Bipolar ,, Now i am looking back and can see where i have been BiPolar since i was a kid but i was just diagnosed with it this year at age 44 !!!!!

Meds i have tried Abilify ( massive Nausea that never stopped )
Cymbalta ( severe stomach pains )

Current Meds

Seroquel 300 mg at nite
Lamictal 100 or 150 a nite depending on when i can afford to refill it
Xanax 1mg twice a day
Halcion .5mg at nite
Neurontin 300mg as needed
Flexril 10mg as needed
Loratab 7.5mg as needed

Honestly most days id love to throw every damn medication in the trash ... Up until this past year I somehow "managed" my life without all these meds... looking back I did some really dumb *hit ..but other than a few bouts of "depression" but due tomajor life stressors ( father dying , divorce )

I just feel like it has taken over my life on all levels and even tho I am faithful with my T sessions and working very hard ..I dont know I just want to pack a duffel bag and my dog and get in a car and literally drive away ( my T said thats a normal thougth process for someone with bipolar ..

Sorry this is so long ..I just needed to vent, rant, complain or having a nice big fat pity party for myself ....depending how you look at it .

Thanks for any replys in advance

Wishing you all peace and love and food with no calories