I agree with every one ,,Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee take care of you ..

Just call a hotline.. sometimes just saying things outloud to another person can lift the load enough for you to stay safe .

I have called a hotline numerous times this year and to be honest they saved me from doing something stupid and or winding up going to a psych ward voluntarily ..

Its much easier to make a phone call than letting things get even worse ..

Please be safe and remember all the support your getting !!!!

Wishing you Love, Peace and hugs !