This means that "you", the spiritual "being" doesn't want to die, however the ego/mind is causing such suffering that you want to be separate from it controlling "you".

Go to the library and get the book "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. This book will start you on the journey that ultimately encompasses the end of suffering caused by the mind. To free "you" from your "mind"....and yes they are separate, however the mind wants full control which causes "you" to suffer.