I'm trying to figure out why I'm so upset...why can't I just be okay with the fact that it will be awhile before I see him...and I think I feel like I'm always getting put in the back of the line for priorities...I want him to say...I'm going to choose you..because I'm pretty sure his Thursday clients don't get shafted so often...tell them u can't meet...it's not fair! He must not care enough...or maybe even at all...I'm so mad at him...he should have never said we could do this week-my life is full of broken promises from men already...I don't need it from him..it hurts...I will never be chosen first by him...it won't ever be me...and I know that's reality but I hate it...i want him to say you are hurting so much right now..we need to see each other...and you are working so hard...I want to see you...but nope...okay I'm just rambling now....