Hey, Onward! You might get some benefit from Daniel Siegel's "Mindsight," ten dollars and change at Amazon, less at half.com. It's for folks like yourself who for whatever reason can't be in therapy and have to do things on their own. Siegel's an M.D. psychiatrist, psychoanalyst at the UCLA med school. A big name. Please read the Amazon reviews and make up your own mind. Take care.