stumpy: thank you for your wise words. They helped.

PH: I'll look at the site. Thank you.

sunrise: I appreciate everything you wrote. I don't know why I feel like I have to blame someone. I feel like this therapy is a failure because, as always with my therapy, what I've gotten MOST is the close connection with someone to the point of "addiction", which is simply a repetition of the pattern I've exhibited all of these years. Aside from that, my T has helped me with anxiety, taught me meditation and mindfulness, so it's not all a failure. But my main issue remains unsolved--so far. My T is still confident she can help me by delving more into my past. So maybe it's not a failure yet; I just feel like it is.

tigergirl: I KNOW I would have ended up feeling the same way towards my T no matter what because I haven't learned how to stop wanting what I can't have. My former T told me she was treating my "inner adult", not child, and guess what, the child parts rebelled and attached to her so badly that I couldn't quit for 7 years!

I know that my current T wants the best for me; if she made mistakes they weren't intentional. I know how dedicated she is, which makes me want her to succeed with me. I don't want this therapy to fail, for her sake and for mine. Thanks for your hugs and wishes for me.

Can'tExplain: I know what you mean about little mistakes that make our Ts more human.

Jaybird: Yes, I am glad I have my T to deal with these issues. If I didn't repeat the pattern with her, there would be nothing to work with! If she didn't make "mistakes", she wouldn't know how intense my feelings are about not getting what I wish I could have.

sawe: thank you!

elliemay: I agree that what is happening to me now is crucial for my healing. My fear is that I've been down this path before and nothing changes. Something inside of me has to get better. My T knows that, to her credit, so I hope working with the child parts more and more will help. Otherwise, I'm back to square one.

Anne: It's just that I think people are getting tired of my threads on the same subject.

hankster: I agree that we can repair ruptures with our Ts and that's the beauty of therapy. I'm glad your T makes you feel that way. I like your description of repair with him.