It is challenging and a lot depends on how you have been imprinted growing up, or even if you have been a victim of abuse. I do understand what your saying about hitting those blocks, I think that is a problem many share, including myself. Erasing negetive thought patterns sure doesn't happen overnight. But it sounds like you are becoming more aware of what those negetive thought patterns are, that is definitely a beginning. Often we have habit thinking that we are just not aware of, identifying it is a big step towards eventually changing it.

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