I definitely felt worse at the beginning of therapy. All kinds of ***** broke loose. My emotions were all over the place and I felt like I was entering Crazyville. Those emotions which had been contained and buried for so long were being released and I didn't know how to handle them. So, yes, I was feeling like therapy was making me worse.

But it was only because I hadn't learned about myself intimately. I was hidden from myself. And as long as i remained hidden, I thought I was managing. Obviously I wasn't but I had a sense of control (wrongly assumed) that I didn't once I began therapy.

But now, months later I can see how valuable going through that period was. Although extremely uncomfortable and painful, it allowed me to work through some deep deep stuff. I could have run away and quit therapy but I wouldn't have gained what I have gained. It's tough, it's scary and it's very very hard but it's worth it if you can find the strength and courage to continue.