I don't know about this. As much as I am willing to look into the whole inner child therapy, methinks you are often using it as excuse to show you are not guilty here, it is those children inside... I think to insist on fragmentation of self is not really healthy. Can you think of yourself as wholesome person? Person with some issues which are however your own?

And I remember you posting about how this T is different and how it is helping... so it is kinda sad to see you at the same place where you been before.

I think you need to answer honestly as what would have to happen to you for your pattern to change. What do you really really want from your T? From life? Maybe it is time for a bit of different perspective.