Thanks for the reply Kindachactic .

My T and Pdoc office will help getting me the medications i take once i lose my health insurance .. will be the first of the year Ill be able to hopefully afford two more refills due nov 10th and dec 10th IF we can afford them ... finacially things are just that tight ( like so many people i know) ... I have filed for disability as to my primary care doctor and my Pdos and T has advised me .. of course i was denied the first go around and have filed for a reconsideration... I hate the thought of it but i finally can admit that between bipolar so unstable and my fibro ,,I just cant work at this point . ..
Seroquel for me is for sleep and mood ... and now this is day 3 without and I know i need it I am feeling snappy and easily annoyed ..but it has been nice for a few days to not constantly obsess about food ..I know my mental health is more important than weight but for me the anorexia issue is a BIG thing.

I use to take Neurontin twice daily ... It really started to not work ..along with Loratab flexril and soma all pretty much lost there effect so i took myself off all of them at once and i spent a week of pure hell LOL but i knew i had to take a break .. personally my pain is always at a 7 on a scale to 10 .. typically i wait til i hit at least a 9 before i take it only because i dont want my body to just get use to it again and it not work at all .. also neurontin causes weight gain ...LOL

I see my T wednesday .. I feel safe and all today just easily annoyed and have to remind myself its not my husbands fault I decided to take a couple days off Seroquel .. so im trying very hard to just keep to myself and not allow myself to take it out on him .. Hes not to happy that i stopped it for a few days ,, but he cant really understand how all this feels.. noone really can understand it unless they are living it ,, well except my T hes amazing !! im very blessed to have found him ... that one hour a week i see him i feel so safe and not judged , he helps me cope with all my mulititude of problems LOL

Sorry for the long rambling responses ,, i swear it seems since fibor hit 18 months ago and its all been downhill since then 3 trips to the psych ward and therapy weekly ,, seems im unable to make a condensed version of anything like i use to .... i hate rambling but i cant seem to make things shorter . LOL

Thanks for your insite it heled me and just knowing other people really can support me and know how it all feels ..

(((((HUGS)))))