Hi!
I really need you to help me with my case and tell me your opinion of what exactly do I have!! ( I know i am not getting professional advise , i am not asking for a professional diagnose, so don't worry )
I was diagnosed last year with social anxiety and but on top of that, I found I experience the following points lately. My main concern is at work . because this is where the symptoms have their effect on my career and income. I am not sure if they a re depression or inattentive ADD ( I am sure i am not hyperactive)
I really appreciate your help!
- Lost motivation . Nearly no motivation to work at all .
- Can’t concentrate .
- Can’t bring myself to start a degree, start a long term project, investigate a complex issue at work etc. Basically anything that requires effort and time or difficult or difficult details. I never was fond of school or going to it .
- Out of 8 hours work I can only effectively work 6 or 7 and the rest is on the net because I can’t bring myself to work, specially at the end of the day , it’s like my fuel couldn’t go all way . (Of course no overtime!)
- My memory is very short.
- Loss of energy.
- Procrastination.
- Feeling slow or thick, make stupid mistakes .I was an average student.
- I have trouble being organized and following the same structure that I put for myself or being consistent.
- I have problems demanding from people and dealing with authority figures.
when i am about to sleep or when i am sleeping
- I have this urge to stay late in the night and do something fun ( YouTube, games, read articles).
- I don’t want to go to sleep because I feel I haven’t had fun enough!! & because I am afraid of confronting tomorrow. Feels like I can't handle it or I am no up to speed.
- My worries & anxiety haunt me during sleep and sometimes they wake me up 1 or 2 times as if a mild panic. Feeling cold during my sleep etc...
- I wake up every day tired , with a headache or feeling drowsy (no matter how much sleep I get!)
- I never get deep restful sleep and never wake up sharp!
- I know I have some bruxism problem. Both during the day and during sleep.
- I daydream in bed about things that interest me .
Just normally during the day
- Can’t bring myself to clean and wash dishes etc…
- Don’t feel my life is going where I want it to go.
- Loss of energy.
- Feeling that I have no control over my life and it is just on inertia . Like life overwhelms me.
- My apartment is a mess.
- It's like I have a permanent mild headache.
- I have self esteem and self confidence issues. I was more of a follower than a leader.
- Can't keep a habit , I always have sort of indecisions where to put the dishes after I wash them . Always put them in different places.
- I am obsessed with reading self help materials ( never finish a book though) and self help forums on the net in search of getting better .
- I want to sit in my pajamas all day because I feel I cant handle life.
The items that are in purple above i think i had since childhood!
Is there anybody who have similar symptoms and was able to figure out if its Depression or ADD?!
Thanks!!