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Originally Posted by OneRedRose
This might just be a feeling ive developed due to issues with T atm but...I was thinking the other day, I have always been strong, only two of my friends had ever seen me cry, 1 time was because I was very very drunk at the time, and the other time was because id just broke my toe.
since seeing T ive had many break downs, I dont cry in public! but apparently now I do...I dont like this feeling of being weak....so my question...does therapy actually make us worse? does talking about our pain just bring it to the surface instead of heal it?
since seeing T im pretty sure im being diagnosed over time with mental health conditions that I just dont have!, its frustrating and makes me second guess my own mental health...I went in for depression and anxiety and im walking out with a handful of meds and calls of concern.  |
Hi OneRedRose,
I thought this at first but then I realized I had spent my whole life pushing these feelings down. And the reason I ended up going to therapy was because I simply couldn't keep them down anymore. So I didn't have a choice. But I know what you mean. I have often thought, "Geez, can't I go back to living how I was before, everything was fine and I didn't feel so emotional." But I have to be honest with myself. Even then I still had the odd day where I knew something wasn't right. All those years pushing feelings down took a toll. I can't deny that. I think the only way past it is "through." In the long run, accessing emotions and being able to cry makes us stronger. Sending many supportive thoughts your way. Hope you start to feel better.
Elana