I just read your posts and know where you are at as I have been having lots of SI--and had serious past suicide attempts, including one that left me in a coma for 3 days.

I just try to hang on for my daughter and hope I can get through a bad time like the one I am having--I just think how tramatic it would be to have a mother who commits suicide and try to hold on to that.

This is my 1st time on any online support site--I just registered--used your user name to think of one for me-- but I wanted to tell you to try to hang on as I am trying also.

I am having trouble in my marriage also. At least your husband cares, I told my husband I was suicidal a few days ago and he went away on a business trip and didn't even call--the irony is he is a lobbyist for one of the biggest consumer mental health groups and he knows nothing about bipolar and doesn't seem to give a damn. At least your husband cares to want you to go to hospital or your own safety.

Hang in there--I will do the same.