For me, uncertainty is a tough one especially when it comes to appointments and times. I need to kind of "gear up" for the session, and when one gets cancelled, it's hard to re-group. I sure feel you on that one. I think it's great to be resourceful and find other options for checking in with anyone else when you are in a waiting mode. Last week, when I could not meet with T, I reached out to a good friend and I did a lot of listening to him and his issues, and we talked about baseball. Not therapy, but still quite healing.

Where I do differ, however, is in some of our (I'm making a collective judgement here, maybe unfair) overheated rhetoric. I do this alot...talking myself into a purple foaming fit because of a T meltdown. For example, I honestly don't think anyone is being tortured here. Unsettled, yes but tortured?

Hang in there......I feel that you have the resources and wisdom to deal with this! I would also be upset if I were in your shoes. A regular appointment does wonders to keep the freak level in check....